A part-time gardener
and full-time Philadelphia cream cheese eater;
The choir girl in cut offs and high tops
who loves JESUS and indie music.
A couch connoisseur
and an unashamed devourer of all things chocolate. Known to applaud at the end of every Mel Gibson movie and buy every item on the Marshalls clearance racks.
An unapologetic romantic who will most likely get along very well with your mom.


Hello. These are musings of a juvenile thinker.

1.24.2010

"tremendous propensity for foolishness"

He said, 
"There's a kind of sin 
that becomes a life principle."
And it broke me 
because i knew exactly what he meant.


At the risk of sounding preachy, i'm just gonna come out and say this anyway. I think God is awesome. And that is a very good thing for me, personally, because i have a tremendous propensity for foolishness. I once drove around in the States...without a valid driver's license. If the cops found out, i would've gotten deported and banned from US ground and i would've deserved it too. When i look back on it, i always get this sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach. I just can't believe how much i risked just to get to Marshals so i can buy clearance cookies. Amazing, isn't it? Told you so.

My mom's leaving in March and i'm trying to spend as much time with her as i can. I took her to RaiRai Ken tonight and she really liked the ramen. So that was good. We've grown closer over the last few weeks and we're beginning to see each other's flaw in ourselves. So we decided to work on our flaws together. She's 47 years old and for an "old dog" (for lack of a better metaphor??) like her to try and learn a new trick is a gift in itself.

Sometimes, if we're not careful, our lives can get overrun with so much useless stuff. We can be so preoccupied with finding things to do or entertain ourselves with that we miss out on all these wonderful opportunities for growth. I speak from first hand experience and i'm not proud of it.

Who are you? Where are you going? What is your purpose? Who is your god? We spend so much time trying to make ourselves look good or feel good. Some of us go through tremendous lengths to "improve" their physical appearances (google Heide Montag). We stay for hours on Facebook trying to compare our lives with others. We wake up, eat, go to school or work, eat, and sleep. And it's like that for years. But is that enough? Is it enough to simply have a daily rhythm of tasks to accomplish?
Is it enough to just feel happy?

No, it's not. And it's a good thing too. GOD himself says in Jeremiah 33:3
"Call to me, and I will answer you, and I will show you great and mighty things, 
which you do not know."


I really appreciate the kind of God my God is. He took into consideration every single, solitary need you and i could ever have and then He wrote instructions on them. God doesn't just have love.
God IS Love. 
You and i are an object of that love and we need to start looking at our lives that way.

Numerous, great men and women have written better testimonies than mine.
But this is my own, and i'm just grateful.

God who created both order and beauty in the universe gives careful attention to the details of our lives.
Is there a better, more powerful truth than God's love?

4 comments:

  1. Amen! praying for others to realize this too.. *winkzz

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  2. If i had a dime for every time i realized something, i'd be rich by now. hehe. more blogs to come! GOD bless yous!

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  3. lol! true and for other bloggers too!

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  4. This is a very wonderful post Ayeaye. Thank you for sharing and keep up the good writing!!

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