Happily disqualified

A very good friend of mine once asked me, "What's your favorite part about being married?" I wanted to give a profound, poetic answer…but really it was easy. My husband, David. The man i married is my favorite part of being married. I know some older married couples might roll their eyes and say, "Wait a while, it'll wear off." But i promise you, it never will. Because being with my husband makes me think about the Lord's goodness. And the Lord's goodness means life to me. I've prayed for the longest time for the Lord to place a desire in me for more of Himself. And i'm blessed to be able to claim that God has become my treasure.

I've tasted and seen that the Lord is good. The journey of getting to this season of my life has entailed a lot of faith and boldness on my part. But even that faith and boldness can only come from the Lord. The more i look at the victories i've had, the more i grasp only His greatness in it all. I delight in showing the world what disqualifies me from triumphs in life, because then they understand that my God is real.

I grew up witnessing drug, alcohol and endless physical abuse. I was destined for a life of misery, darkness and defeat. The world was an awful, desperate place full of hopelessness. Every time i think about it, i thank the Lord for the miracle of coming out alive and well. Somehow, despite being surrounded by suffocating darkness, i was able to breathe. God had preserved my life. Before i even had the intellectual capacity to know that a god existed, there He was covering me. How do you forget a God like that? You can't.

Many miraculous things have happened since then. Despite coming from a "broken family" making me virtually unsuitable as a wife (which, in my experience, is a popular belief back home in the Philippines), i am married to someone who loves the heck out of me, and it's great! The Lord continues to supply all my needs in order to live and work in the United States and i'm grateful to know it doesn't end there.

I believe we're all part of a much bigger picture than we could ever understand. A lot of times, our own individual lives don't seem very exciting. But that doesn't mean the Lord isn't working. One of the most valuable lessons i've come to learn (and am still learning) is that we don't need to have extraordinary abilities to do extraordinary things. We just gotta believe Him--what He says and does. I once came across a quote saying "We're only as close to God as we want to be," and speaking from my own experience, it's through seeking Him (and finding Him) that we are able to truly believe. 

I'm on my way to discovering the purpose of my being here…all the while trusting that whatever the Lord has for me will ultimately bring Him glory. And that's what excites and encourages me everyday. Not that anything particularly exciting is going to happen, but the fact that i get to be a part of something that pleases my Creator blows me away everytime. Wow. What a marvelous GOD i serve!