A part-time gardener
and full-time Philadelphia cream cheese eater;
The choir girl in cut offs and high tops
who loves JESUS and indie music.
A couch connoisseur
and an unashamed devourer of all things chocolate. Known to applaud at the end of every Mel Gibson movie and buy every item on the Marshalls clearance racks.
An unapologetic romantic who will most likely get along very well with your mom.


Hello. These are musings of a juvenile thinker.

9.14.2011

September 3rd, on my journal, i wrote...

I woke up yesterday with the Lord speaking to me in my heart. I hesitate to say heart because i've learned not to trust mine so quickly (Jer 17:9). But the core of me continues to lift up the Lord in praise and thanksgiving. I said to David, last night, that i know a lot of rich and successful people...but that i am the most blessed person i know. That's a big statement, i know. But i continue to claim that in complete confidence. You see, i am well aware of exactly how "un"special i am. There's nothing about me that could ever merit the Lord's unfailing, powerful love. And yet HE continues to show up every morning, saturating my spirit with Himself...forcing me to believe that i'm "loved more than i know" by a King whose plan for me continues to overwhelm me everyday. What is it about me that's so special? Nothing. And i never can earn His love. 


I still think about the Lord's love for me. I still wonder about it in quiet times. I'm still not used to the truth that a GOD so good could ever care for me as much as he does. Every time i remember it, i implode. Thinking about His love for me destroys all my composure. It's pretty ugly. And i'll always be this way. I'll always marvel at the undeserved love i have from my Father.


My whole being jumps up whenever i look at David (my fiancé). He is evidence of the Lord's favor on me. I'm not rejoicing in the fact that i'm "finally" getting married or that i'm "finally" going to be with someone for the rest of my life. I rejoice at the splendor of GOD's majesty shining on me--bringing me (a lowly servant girl) to a place and season where HE could display his strength in my weakness, His power in my meekness, His greatness in my nothingness. It just seems to me, that the higher up the mountain peak of joy i go, the more i see my small-ness, and the Lord's big-ness. I see the Lord in it all. Even as i am becoming the wife of the most wonderful man i know, my soul testifies that it's all about Jesus, still. Everything is.


Engaged to be married on September 17, 2011 <3 Hallelujah!
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