I've been living in a state of overwhelm for almost 3 months now. It's easy when you realize that nothing you have is truly yours. In my case, i literally do not own anything out here and yet i have a great abundance of it. And i delight so much in saying that because in my poverty i can boast in GOD's richness! Even my impoverished countenance can only be enriched by HIM. I have discovered that even the tiny flicker of "goodness" i have inside of me is from GOD. It's all HIM. The Lord is good beyond explanation and regardless of our circumstances. Even if this is all you will remember from my blog, i'm happy with that.
I'm so glad i don't have to rely on my wits to get by in life! LOL. I would be the most wretched human being you would have ever seen. First, because i'm really not very wise to begin with left to my own devices, you know. And i absolutely do have ample evidence to back that claim up. But i can't seem to recall any as of the moment. Sorry! *sticks her tongue out*
I'm even more grateful that i don't have to be in control of everything. I can't even begin to imagine the kind of life where you would need to rely on your own resources, and your own strength in order for every single good and/or meaningful thing to happen! I'd much rather be using that energy to enjoy following Jesus and listening to him speak and seeing what He's doing in and around me. HE is such an interesting person to me and i just absolutely enjoy his company. Plus i think it's so liberating to just be able to laugh at yourself because you don't know what the heck you're doing and you're looking so awkward and silly--which is a feeling i know very well!
Now more than ever, i'm getting to know the Lord as my father. He is stronger and wiser than i could possibly ever grasp and that's FANTASTIC! You know why? Because, being the perfect Father that he is, i can trust him--his identity, his promises, his perfect will for me…just everything about the Lord our GOD is deeply and immeasurably good. Oh i am most definitely on a spiritual high right now and that's why i had to write this down. I'll probably need it for future references when i know my spiritual walk won't be as hot and i'd need to pick myself off the pavement and keep walking. But the more important reason for my making this entry is so that, on a much bigger scale, i can testify about GOD's love. His love never fails. He is love itself. And if at the end of your life all you know is GOD's love, you will have lived life to the fullest.
