I'm seeing GOD in a completely different light. It's pretty intense. He's obviously leading me towards something I can't fully know yet. But it's so beautiful. He leads me like a lamp unto my feet and i'm only able to see one step ahead of me. And there are days when i struggle to contain the excitement of not knowing but at the same time not doubting, and not fearing anyone or anything. The odds are stacked up against me--people have examined the circumstance and are doubtful. But i can't agree with anyone but GOD. I can't force myself to be discouraged. Believe me, i've tried! Hope and confidence have set up tent in my soul and all i can seem to do is lift up my eyes to GOD and follow.
My life is changing right before my eyes. And i honestly don't know what's gonna happen next. But i really wanna see where my faith takes me. The bible instructs us to "believe." I personally think HE means for us to trust in HIM so completely so that we can start discovering "great and mighty things which we do not know." I'm so glad i don't have to work for everything. Can you imagine a life where you were the sole person responsible for making things happen for yourself? Where you had to work in order for any and every good thing to occur in your life? It sounds absolutely dreadful. It's also impossible because we know from scripture that "Every good and perfect thing comes from GOD." This includes--that stranger who returned your cell phone to you when you accidentally left it in the motorela (happened to me yesterday), or that new job you just got, or looking at the mirror and liking what you see, or how much fun you have when you're playing a sport, or protection everyday from sickness and calamities and accidents, or the friends who desire closeness with you, or even how your favorite food tastes…and so much more. There are so many things in life that are a source of joy to us that we have no control over. They give us pleasure without us having to work so that we get to experience them. They are gifts from GOD. He is such a good GOD. He knows exactly how to take care of each and every single human being on the planet--He makes life beautiful!
I am about to embark on the biggest adventure in my life yet! It's pretty wild and amazing at the same time. Wild because i've never done anything borne completely out of my faith in GOD. I never knew relinquishing control over my life could give me so much freedom to be able to truly live. I once wrote on my bible "If you are only able to trust in GOD after he has revealed his will for you, then you are merely agreeing with the facts. That's not faith." On a side note, i've always wanted to write a book. But a good quote is good too :) Feel free to quote me, lol!
He shows me scripture pertaining to where i'm at in my life. There have been days where he has had to *make me* hear what He would have me do. He is more determined to show us his will for us than we are at seeking it. Oh i just cant quite get over that. It amazes me how GOD loves me--and you too!
Jesus continues to captivate my heart everyday. He truly is more wonderful than anyone could ever know. If we would take the time to seek HIM, he promises to be found. Finding Jesus is the most satisfying experience i've ever know. It is in finding HIM that we find completeness. HE alone can make us whole :)
